School

i just finished the first week of my junior year of high school. i'm kinda exhausted, but i know i'll get used to it okay. two days a cycle(my school has six day cycles) i have two study halls in a row. and today i had those two study halls in a row, and halfway through the second one i was really bored. these study halls are during second and third period. so i got everything done that was assigned for the weekend from my first class, and stuff i still needed to do for my other classes. and then, i had nothing else to do. fortunately, i will have lots of time to work on my Senior High Project paper and presentation. well, i'll just work on the paper for now. but at least if i have that stuff with me it'll be good to make some headway on that.

although, then again, once student commons opens up, i may find other things to do and people to talk to down there. we'll see what happens.

oh, this all being said, i probably won't be writting quite as much with all the other stuff i need to get done. i'm aiming for weekend postings, but i can't make any promises. so i'll just post when i think of it and have time.

Junior Girl

I officially become a "junior girl" tomorrow. it feels weird saying that. i've felt strange all summer saying that i was going to be a junior. i've gotten used to telling people that i'm going to be a junior, and i've become more accustom to the idea. but not fully. i suppose tomorrow will be like any other first day of school. read the handbook thingy for an hour and half or so, and then go through your day. oh, and bring lots of papers home for my mom to fill out. this year i have to drop stuff off at the nurse's office, since i'm allergic to stuff now. or rather, we know for sure that i'm allergic to stuff. so that'll be new and different. i'm excited. today i realized that i only have two first days of school left. well, in the public school system. i like public school though. it's a nice mission field if one choses to think about it that way. and actually there are a lot of us christians who go to my school. so it's nice to have them to connect with. we get a good sized crowd for SYATP every year. so anyways, i'm praying that tomorrow goes well.

Nothing like Snoopy

Every year for Chirstmas i ask for a Snoopy Calendar from my aunt. this past yeah, and the year before that the calendar has been a "happiness" calendar. you know, those books "Happiness Is..." well, each month i've been thinking about what happiness is. this month, according to the calendar, Happiness is watching an old movie. it just so happens that a few weeks ago i decided to make some changes about all the media i take in. so i've ruled out a lot of movies that my family owns. but last night my sister decided to watch Seven Brides for Seven Brothers. so i watched part of it last night and the last parts this morning. so that was my old movie for the month. and now i'm watching "Snoopy Come Home". my parents taped it whenever it came on sometime in the early 90s. i'm guessing 1993 or something because after this tape there's some christmas thing with Amy Grant, and i'm pretty sure it's from 1994. so maybe they showed this movie in '94. i really don't know. but it was a long time ago and you can tell from a lot of things. the commercials for one. they seem really cheesy now. and did you relize how boxy the trucks were? but they aren't as bad with content as the commercials are now. at least, not that i've seen. i think it'd be interesting to do a mass media study like that. and i just found out that KISS 99.3 FM used to be called Mix 99.3. that's very interesting.

so anyways, i love Snoopy. i share a birthday with him, which it probably the reason why i love the Peanuts comic so much. and now this year another reason to like those Peanuts is because i'm allergic to the food peanuts. so at least i'm not allergic to the Peanuts comic! that'd be very weird. so i'll have to see what the happiness thing is next month.

J'ai Faim

So last night, i went to work and then went to Wal-Mart. I needed sticky tack and confetti. yeah, i know, it's a weird combination. i guess i could stick the confetti to the sticky tack. but i don't want to do that. so then i came home. my parents were away visiting some friends of ours, and Joel was home, because he had evening practice for cross-country, so he didn't go with my parents and Anna. When i came home, Joel was on the computer. A few minutes later he asked me when Wiser's opened the next morning. Wiser's is a very small grocery store a few blocks away from us. he said that he was going to go there in the morning to get Cereal, because all we had was Special K and Rice Krispies. We needed something with substance. It was about 10:00pm, and i said that technically i could go out to Giant and get some cereal, but i didn't feel like doing that. so we decided that Joel would wake me up when he woke up, and then i was supposed to get ready and take him to Giant to get cereal.

so he woke me, and then went to ask Dad if we could go to Giant. Dad said to ask Mom. Mom told us not to go to Giant, but to go to Walmart. Then she told us specific cereals to get. so i got to make another trip out to Walmart. it was the first time i've driven with someone since i got my lisence. but it was fine. but i was really hungry by the time we got home. so i just opened up a box and had my breakfast. so now we have cereal.

that's about it for now.

More thoughts

I was thinking more about the "Diving in Heart first" thing. see, diving in heart first could be concidered deciding things by emotions(in America, the heart is the seat of the emotion) instead of logic(brain). and i think it depends on the situation. and then there drawing the line between emotions and feelings. i've been told that i shouldn't let feelings control my emotions. it's great advice really. It's been a wonderful reminder for the past two years that i've heard it. so basically i guess the long and short of it is that we should be leaning on God for everything, and letting him tell us what to do. that's what i've been trying to do. and i will continue to try my best to do that.

comments

i would just like to say that i love the comments i get on this blog, as well as my other blog. it was esspecially exciting when the first comment on The Squeaky Show Blog was in a totally different language! i've been reading a lot lately about how people have chosen to disable their comments, or they have posted disclaimers about what people are allowed to comment about. personally, i don't really care. comment all you want. i would appriciate it if you would keep the mean comments to yourself, but if you feel a need to post them, that's fine. i really don't mind. i really do want to hear people's opinion on my posts. i do have some ideas that are a little "out there" sometimes. at least, compared to everyone else's ideas they seem out there. and if you don't agree with that, it's fine. you are allowed to comment and say that you don't agree. it is a free country after all.

okay, so maybe the reason i'm okay with people commenting is because i don't get many comments. i see i've gotten a few here and there, and they've all been great. so go ahead, comment all you want.

Let's just focus on now

There's some big things coming up in my life tomorrow. and i'm trying really hard to rely on God fully, and not be worried. because i've been told that i worry too much. but i'm working on it. but this thing that's coming up tomorrow, i've had a hard time not worrying about it. whenever i think about it, i have to force myself to think about something else to get my mind off of it. i just know that i will be victorious tomorrow in what i do. and i feel even more confident than last time.

anywho, last night when i was praying about it, i felt like God was telling me "just focus on tomorrow". and today, the motto thought became "Just focus on today". so i'm trying to focus on what's right in front of me, and what needs to be done right now. i've already felt God tell me that He will be with me through all things tomorrow, and i can do this. i just don't want to be too cocky about it.

but enough about it, i need to focus on right now.

Two weeks

In two weeks from today, i will be embarking on the second half of high school. From the looks of it, it's going to be an exciting year. a hard one, yet exciting. i don't think it has officially clicked yet that i'm going to be a junior. but i think it took a little while to totally realize i was a sophomore last year. tomorrow is when my mom is taking us on the big back to school shopping trip. when we went to our new Target, i got a few things, like a binder/notebook thing. so all i need is pencils, and more notebook paper. well, i also need a backpack and sneakers. but we'll try to find all that tomorrow.

another "annual" thing i usually do is clean off my desk. well, i guess i just started last year. i think last year i was at my dad's office, and one of his co-workers was cleaning off her desk. and she said it really made her feel better. so i figured it couldn't hurt. so last year i actually took Formula 409 to my desk. but this year i think it's going to be more organizing and stuff. and i like to clear these things while i listen to Adventures in Odyssey. It's nice because i can see how much i can get done in a half an hour's time.

i think i'll work on that today, once i get ready for the day and everything. i have a strange feeling that the next two weeks will fly. i just need to hold on and enjoy the ride. but i know i'm ready.

A new forming Idea

So this thing came into my head the other day. i was thinking about diving into something, with something being some kind of activity, relationship or whatever. but then the phrase "diving in heart first" came to my mind. I haven't developed this enough to come up with an entire metaphor. I don't know whether diving in heart first is a good thing, or a bad thing, and i don't know whether it's something that we should be doing, or shoudn't be doing. i need to ponder this a little more. but i just wanted to put it out there. right now i'm leaning towards that it's a bad thing because it doesn't really allow for logic. but maybe there's a happy medium, like if we would make sure logic is there with the heart while they're diving. it's like the album by Unsearchable Riches called "Put your Heart where Your Head Is". wait a second, they mean something different. never mind, i don't know where i come up with these things.

you know that feeling?

this morning when i got up i felt that feeling. it's the feeling you get when waking up in a different bed than your own. whether it's staying a my Grandma's house, camp, or West Virginia. I just realized this morning that it has a feeling. see, we have air conditioning downstairs, and downstairs only. my room that i share with my sister is in the back corner of the house. so it's very cold in the winter, and very hot in the summer. but it's all good because i get the best radio reception in the house, and that's all i care about. but last night was really hot. and i guess i fell asleep for awhile, but then woke up at 2:30AM or so. then, at 3 i went downstairs to the nice cool living room. i had troubles getting to sleep down there because there was a fan being very loud. so i turned that down a notch, and grabbed my portable tape player/radio(i love it!). i started listening to Christian music, but craved classical. so thank God for WITF radio. they play classical music all through the night. so i started listening to that.

i guess i fell asleep sometime soon after 4, because the next thing i knew my brother came downstairs and turned on the light and the computer. i don't think he even noticed me for 45 minutes or so. that was at 4:50. crazy, but true. it didn't matter anyways, because at 5, WITF starts NPR news. I guess there are a lot of NPR listeners around here that get up around 5 or so and listen to NPR, so they don't want to hear classical music. so then i just listened to Christian radio some more, and didn't get a chance to fall asleep again. so it'll be interesting to see how this day goes. i don't drink coffee or soda, so i don't intake caffine. but God can give me energy!

Part of the reason why i had troubles sleeping was because i was thinking about yesterday. it was a very interesting day to say the least. it had it's highs and lows. things i was so happy about, and then other things that i never want to think about again, yet i can't avoid.

another thing is that i'm trying to get back into the habit of going to bed early and getting up early. i've been doing pretty good this summer about getting up before 8am. usually 6:30 at the earliest. but i haven't been going to bed until ten o'clock. and i really don't give myself any winddown time, which is probably why it takes me so long to fall asleep. usually i just go right from an activity like watching tv, or being on the computer to going to bed. school only starts in a few more weeks, so i need to get back into all those habits again.

it kinda won't help though that my sister will want to stay up late. but as long as i'm asleep before she comes in the room, i think i'll be okay.

so, back to my point. when i finally decided to get up this morning, i felt like i was in West Virginia on the missions trip waking up at the 4-H camp. but then it also felt like whenever i wake up at Grandma's house. maybe that's because i slept in the chair in the living room, and whenever i stay there, i sleep in a chair. basically it was like waking up anywhere other than my room.

Craziness

the three of us kids are really hyper today. it's just been one exciting thing after another. the surprise for my friend got to his house, Joel, Anna, and I watched some Lawrence Welk Special while folding clothes, then Anna and Joel had an all out croc war. and i have no clue where my mom is. right now i think she's still at work. so this day has been a little crazy. but through it all i can see how God worked through today. God is so cool. and He has a sense of humor. it's great. I hope i can find some songs to go along with this to play on the radio tomorrow. we'll have to see.

a quote to think about...

Here's that quote i promised:
"When God says no to something, it's because he's saying yes to something better"
-Joshua Harris in his book Not Even a Hint

that really encouraged me when i read it. i think i'll print it out in pretty writing and post it on my locker this school year. last year i had a little theme going. it was a love theme of sorts. at the top i had the chorus to "embers and envelopes" by Mae. That talks about forgiveness and stuff like that. Under that one i had "Divine Romance" by Phil Wickham. In that song it expresses the kind of romance we can have with God. then i printed out all the lyrics to "Maybe Tomorrow" by Nouveux. that talks about waiting for one's future spouse. They were very encouraging to me throughout last school year. but this year i want new songs, new themes, and new quotes. we'll just have to see what God provides.

Sorry i haven't posted in a week...

okay, so i don't think i'll ever post the pictures of my hair. but you can always go on my mom's blog! it seems i've taken a vacation from blogging. Part of the reason for that is because i was working on a really big project. so any time i was on the computer, it was to do this project. no, it's not for School. It was assigned by God. and when God says Go, there's really no way to stop from going. so i worked on that for four days.

It seems today i've been presented with lots of choices. this morning i went to the hardware store because...just because. while i was there, i got some packing tape for my mom. unfortunately, i didn't check which size the dispenser thing uses. so i just got the small with the dispencer. that was wrong. oh well, at least she now has two sizes! then, i was making blond brownies, but didn't have enough brown sugar. so then i had to walk to the grocery store. when i got there, i realized i didn't ask whether she uses light or dark brown sugar. so i chose dark. wrong again. oh well. Mom said it really didn't matter. the good parts of this is: a) i got the name brand of packing tape; and b) at least i was able to still make my blond brownies.

so that's it for now. who knows what i'm going to post about next. oh, i will be posting a wonderful quote i found the other night. but i'll get to that later.